Time Marches On

Tomorrow will be 4 months since MH died.  Sometimes, it still feels like it was yesterday.  There are very few moments when my mind isn't going over the many details of the last 35 years.  I am examining all the moments that led us to where I am today and trying to put them in a place of acceptance and peace.  Yes, there are instances when the "would of/could of" thoughts get hold of me, but I'm glad to say it is minimal.  I am recalling the many good years, and not just the last years and months that were so difficult and painful.

Two days ago, I had some permanent outdoor lighting installed.  I was really excited to get it installed. Then, it was so much fun playing with the app and discovering all the possibilities of fun (and functional) light patterns.  Once I got it all figured out, I realized I felt joyful.  Did you notice those adjectives?  When I realized how I was feeling and how long it had been since I felt those emotions, I knew I was in a good place and moving forward.  Time marches on and so do I.